I'm sitting here on my sofa, trying very hard not to do something. Christmas always manges to send me into a kind of meltdown. After a few days of shopping, writing cards, buying seafood and wrapping presents the meaninglessness of the whole enterprise starts to bother me. Really bother me. I feel coerced into putting so much effort into this thing, this gigantic many headed beast, and I resent it. Usually because I'm tired; tired from the demands of academia, of being an early career researcher, of always wondering what comes next. This tiredness differs from my other non-academic friends, those who know exactly what the next year will bring them, who don't think too hard about what comes next.
This inevitably leads me down the New Year's Resolution path, a path I'm not comfortable walking down. A lot of us get duped into making promises we can't keep, a lot of us use this time of family, friends and extra stress to make over the top promises to ourselves. I'm not sure waht this has to do with writing, though I do know what I'd like to do next, today, while my partner is sleeping on the sofa beside me, and my friend is curled on a mattress in my living room. Read. And so, I have a kind of plea. Has anyone read any devestatingly good, eye-opening, you'll-never-think-of-words-the same-way-again (without hurting my brain) books I can read? In fact, perhaps next year, we can find some way of having a running booklist on this site; recommendations for reading, for teaching, for writing. That's not a resolution by the way. Just an idea.
Hi Natalie, a booklist is a
Hi Natalie, a booklist is a really good idea...I'll get onto that as I work on the site this year.
new year's resolution... sort of
Like you I too bght home novels from the Uni librarywith the goal of reading simply for pleasure. Well that didn't happen. the books were ones I ha not had time to read during the last couple of years and ones "I ought to hae read" as advised by the various colleagues, co fudders and general reviewers. So much for reading for pleasure... who can turn off that analytical section of the brain that is always asking " what makes this bookan award-winner; so popular; rivetting to some; or just plain 'literary' "?
So I resorted to pulp fiction/airport novels and LOVED IT! I also managed to read through some texts in feminist media analysis that I felt looked interesting. They were and I am buying my own copies for the home library.
Now the real hard yakka begins as I make a commitment to finish this damn PhD. I am n longer doing it for personal satisfaction just the bit of paper which I need. So sad really that it has changed and along with that shift has come a change for the worse in my attitude to the process and the motivation to achieve. I guess this is all part of the inevitable roller coaster of emotional ups and downs of this journey. Another hurdle, or to follow my mood, sink hole to claw my way through.
books for booklist
I thought I'd start the list going; I'd recommend anything written by Carol Shields. Easy to read and startlingly original and insightful.